From the Pages of Kian's Journal: Chapter 14 (Final Entry)

As I flip back through the pages of this old journal I can't help but wonder if you have actually read it all. Maybe you have skipped around some or simple browsed through it. My hope is you have read it through, even the parts that seemed a little boring. It has been my life and I have so dearly wanted to share it with you.


I have so much still I need to tell you. But I think I will start with my trip to the Oasis cavern and the event that happened there that changed my life and eventually yours. You see that day as I picked the grow fruit from it's gleaming tree, I saw a face watching me from behind some overgrowth. It looked green at first.


But then the being emerged and I saw he was blue. The same blue shade as my little Belle. He asked me to follow him because there was something he needed to show me. Something I needed to see. He said we could only get there by teleporting. He said simple to focus on him and I would follow. And so I did.


We arrived in a strange place, another cavern of sorts. It looked just like the place I had traveled to through the portal at the Cliff Dwellers. But it was not the same place. This looked somehow artificial. He described it as an empty space between the worlds. His and mine. It was a forgotten place only a few knew of. It had been his home for some time now.


He smiled and watched me look around for a moment, then invited me to follow him into his small dwelling. The same mist that covered the ground outside was also covering the floor here. He told me of how he had created this place to hide from the, "Watchers, as you know them," were his exact words


He showed me around the room, there was a lab with strange, some how familiar objects. There was also something about the smell that made me think of some where I had been before. I listened as he told me about his work. He was a scientist, a geneticist to be exact. He told me he had become one of few experts in the human DNA coding on his home planet. Then he paused and looked at me smiling again.


He said it was time for me to see what he'd been wanting to show me. It was strange, the room seemed to go out of focus and a little light began to glow in the center of him. It grew brighter and he began to change his form. I couldn't believe what, or should I say who, I saw next.


Standing before me, smiling a smile I had known my whole childhood was my father. I am sure my face shown my confusion. I remember my mouth was open and he began to chuckle at my reaction. "But I thought they had killed you!" was all I could say.


"You thought what I wanted you to think," was his response. He then explained why he had gone into hiding. The elders of his people had strict laws on genetics and inter species coupling. He had broken many of their laws by creating me. The punishment was to be death for us both. But he loved me too much.


He begged the Elders for compassion toward me, to let me live on the world of my mother. He promised to wipe away all memories of my life on their planet and replace them with a new past. He secretly left within me the memory of himself in his human form and placed with it the memory of his death. That explained how I knew his face only in his disguise.


Then he told me that it was time I regained my true past. He told me how he could unlock the pathways in my mind that he had closed up. I agreed without hesitation. I wanted to know everything. It was a shock at first, but then it was like a veil was lifted. I could see it all again with my mind's eye.


We talked for hours about my younger days, my childhood. There was so much I could remember now. It was like having a long lost friend finally found. He told me of the connection his people had with some of those here in Murkland. That led me to ask about my mother.


He told me that the memories I had of her were always true memories. And that he had always hoped I'd find her. So that I'd never have to be alone. He had told me she was a kind woman who would grow to love me once she knew who I was. I had always hoped that would be true. I can't tell you how happy I was to see him again. My father alive!


Then he began to tell me he had another secret. It turned out he was the one who had been abducting Ony. He said he did it to protect my children and my wife. Since I had mixed DNA it would be more painful for my wife to give birth and our children would always be blue. He said he had given Ony a special treatment that allowed her to carry the babies in a safer way and he was able to make sure they had the Alien genetic coding to disguise themselves.


Unfortunately he had abducted me the last time and was not able to give Ony the treatment in time and little Belle would now always be blue. I thanked him for what he had tried to do. I knew he did it out of good intentions. Then he told me that if I wanted to I could revert back to my true form. I would be just like my 5 older children. All he had to do was remove the inhibitor he had placed inside me to prevent me from knowing my true origins.


I didn't know what to say at first. Would Ony accept me for what I truly was? Or if I kept the inhibitor would that make me more like her and Belle. I realized that this was the answer to all our questions about our children. This was who I was. I was their father. And I had made them all with my dear Ony. I let him remove the inhibitor.


It was slow at first. Like moving a muscle that has slept for years. He allowed me to mediate and focus myself inward until I found the key and unlocked the secret door, hidden for so long. I felt an energy building up inside and then a flash. I was no longer hiding who I really was. I was looking at things from the other side.


My father took me out side, back into the dark mist of the cavern. He said the air here was the same as our home world. It felt strange against my new skin and I could see things in a way I could not see them in my disguise. I had many of the same gifts my father had, and I was beginning to remember how to use them.


He laughed and said I reminded him of when I was a child and was so wide eyed and full of questions. He also told me of how happy he was to finally be able to talk with me again. To see me in my real skin again. I too was happy to finally have another missing piece to the puzzle.


I disguised myself once more before I told him the time had come for me to return to my family. I had so much to tell Ony. You already know of her reaction, I shared this all with her on our trip to Granite Falls. Before I left, he told me there was one other person I needed to talk to. That the time had come for them to know of who I really was as well.


If you remember I told you at the beginning I was sent here by my 'people'. If that is what you still want to call them now. I'm only a half blood, and so I was rejected. My father grew me from a mix of his and my mother's DNA in a tube in his private lab. He later told me there were 4 of us at the start but I was the only one strong enough to survive transfer to the fetus pods. He never really explained why he did it. But he said there was something in my mother's smile. How even though she was scared and confused, she was kind and patient, and those were qualities his people lacked.


You see, they had abducted her to give her a fertility treatment at the request of one of their human followers here in Murkland. He wanted to build his faction full of strong men who he could then control to help him gain power. My father explained how they did the opposite, they made her more likely to conceive females than males. Something about rejecting the male chromosome, but I won't go into that now, it's boring stuff even to me.


The thing is, when they returned her to earth they wiped her memory so she would forget the whole thing. Later my father said they left a mark on her so the mad man who requested it would know she had been given the treatment. It was this mark that would also allow me to find her and know she was the woman who's DNA helped to grow me. My Father kept her memory scans and a photo of her for me to learn about her.


It is now that I must tell you, you were that woman. And although you did not carry me in the same way as you did your other children, I still look to you as being my mother. I have always known who you were, who you are.


If you remember at the beginning I also told you how I was afraid. And that it was that fear that kept me from coming to you when I first arrived. I was afraid you wouldn't want me when you found out. That you'd be angry or upset by what happened to you. That maybe you would put the blame on me, but I should have given you the chance then instead of waiting until now. So again, I'm sorry. And now that I have learned what love really is, the only thing else I need in my life is yours. It's the one thing that's missing. The final piece to my puzzle. The love of my mother.


So I am taking this book to you tonight. And I hope once you read this part, you have not become bitter at what has happened or the way I have told this to you. I don't think I am as brave as you are so this way was easier for me. But if you can see it in your heart to forgive me and give me the a chance to know you better and to love you, as a son loves his mother, I'd be the happiest man in Murkland.



Thank you for taking the time to read this and for getting to know me and my family some. I'll be waiting at the Vardo. There are a few others there who are wanting to meet you. I hope we will see you soon.

With love, Your son, Kian